Month: September 2011

…blocking the intersection

I do not block the intersections when I am driving.

Or at least, I do my best not to block intersections. Sometimes people need to turn onto a street, and blocking the intersection impedes their progress. I find it interesting how many people block them all the time. I wonder what would happen if an emergency vehicle or fire truck needed to turn onto a street and it was blocked by absent-minded drivers.

Common driving courtesy is not a given here — these drivers are out for blood. While I do not consider myself above any of those who decide to drive selfishly (because I have been so on several occasions), the majority of my drive time is spent being generous to other drivers. I find it gives me peace of mind.

In a city where drivers tend to ignore the rules of the road and drive 50 in a 25 just to get ahead one car length, drive time can be anxiety-ridden. I’m evaluating ways to reduce my car stress, especially since I’m driving for two hours each work day.

However, it also makes me think about this situation on another level. If someone is blocking an intersection, aren’t they “blocking” their own lives in a way?  Our lives respond to the ebb and flow of our daily actions, and this situation seems no different.

Hey driver-up-ahead and to my left, I see your signal blinking, do you need to get in?

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…somebody that i used to know

Ummmm…I’m quite obsessive when it comes to music. So if I hear something that I really like, I will track it down on the net and play it over and over and over and over again. Obsessively. And I’m not even a music fiend! I have an array of tastes, as I’ve mentioned before.

Listening to a radio show a couple of days ago I came across a bit of a song and I thought that it had a nice melody, good rhythm. All I remembered was “now you’re just somebody that I used to know” — the song came and went. I heard it again tonight, and then I did some skipping on the net. Gotye featuring Kimbra.  Ok, who? I can’t even pronounce this man’s name. However, he is Australian and he’s singing in English, so I gave it a go.

Love it! Yep, I’m playing it obsessively now. Outside of the fact that his chorus sounds eerily similar to Sting, whom I’ve adored since high school. Although the song is slightly depressing. I don’t even connect to lyrics in an obvious way, I’ve never had the experience he speaks about. But I connect to his feelings, and his feelings are exposed and eloquent – especially when Kimbra begins to sing. I love how poignant the lyrics are. And I love how expressive he is in this video – the slight wince, eyes quickly remembering a vision of the past and then forgetting, his painful plea.  I love it when men are so expressive! I know it’s the reason why I enjoy Spanish and Italian music so much — both men and women are so demonstrative of their feelings — they’re not hiding behind some facade of stoicism. Oh, the drama!

Tell me if you see what I see/hear/feel — presenting Gotye featuring Kimbra “Somebody That I Used To Know” — Enjoy!

…flying to Italia…soon come

….Ahhhh, such is life. I have been putting out into the ether my desire to return to Italia for a language immersion course and due to some foreseen circumstances (yes, I saw it coming a mile away), I was unable to go earlier this year. However, life happens as it does for a reason.

Since I am feverishly awaiting (creating?) an opportunity for me to learn, I tried to push this language trip into high gear and make it happen within this current month. I was so overwhelmed and stressed, and not sure if I could make it happen in the way I would have liked – but I was going to do my best.  All I kept seeing in my mind were my colleagues asking me “So where are you going? What’s your plan and where are you working next?”, and my reply “Oh, I’m not going to another job right away, I’m off to Italy again for a language immersion course, with the goal of becoming fluent.” Really??? Yep, really. This business we’re in isn’t for me anymore – it doesn’t float my boat, rock my socks, or give me goosebumps.  I’m getting out of it so that I can help people evolve into the person they’ve always dreamed of becoming – helping them visualize and create opportunities in their own lives, and not just the people who can pay for those services.  The first person I’m going to help is me! Yay opportunity!

So yes, I’ve postponed this trip until March-April-May 2012.  Somewhere around there I will be on a plane, anticipating my first class, my first apartment abroad, my first chance to live in a culture outside of my own for an extended period of time. I’ve already printed out my blank calendar for the months of the year starting with September 2011 so that I can fill in the timeline I’m creating to make this a reality. This is a more convenient way to plan a trip. Exciting!

In the meantime, I’m breaking open my old Italian cd’s, books, and listening to podcasts…. Ciao a tutti!